And tonight will go on forever,

While we walk around this town like we own the streets,
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat.

I really have a lot to think about and sort and get out of my head before i go insane. I havent had internet for the past month and we finally got it fixed. Im not even going to try to paraphrase everything thats happened in the past month because i really dont see it as that important right now. Graduation was really hard for me to swallow, and i keep thinking that everything will be fine next year. hopefully ill convince myself of that eventually. Ive really had a hard time with it though, because I was thinking about it, and i realized that all of my friends are older than me, and they're all going off to college. Rachel is basically my other half, and she's going to be in chicago. Ive been thinking a lot lately about my friends, and what they mean to me, and I can honestly say that I would die without them. Its going to be extremely hard on me next year at school, but i know that all of this will be ok in the end, because i'll find ways to see everyone, and ill find time to spend with all of these people that mean the world to me.

On another note, I've also been thinking lately about this summer and what I really want to acomplish. Im playing in a few weddings with Rachel, Emi, and Dalton. And hopefully me and Jamie will be playing a show in the watershed soon, we've been working on some songs on guitar and cello. I have a job, and that means money, so roadtrips are essential, to the beach, or wherever. I dont know if roadtrips really count as accomplishments.

After work today I got to talk to Susan Courtney and Jamie, and Susan and Jamie came over to play some music, which ended up in about an hour of music, and about another 2 hours talking, both of which i really needed, musically and emotionally.
Honestly, I've been an emotional wreck lately. Ive found that these times when i just get to sit and talk with some of my really good friends, are the times when im truly happy, and those are the times when i really have a chance to think about life, and everything that's gone on lately, and sort things out. Nothing really bad has happened lately, I think it kindof sounds like thats what im getting at, but its not. I've just been so busy and I haven't had near enough time to stop and think about anything.

I really want to make the most of this summer, when i still can get together with everyone, and go to the beach, or the lake, or just hang out.

I think thats all.

Good news:

So I am officially not grounded anymore and that makes me really excited because I can have a life again.
Actually I just realized I've only been grounded since Monday morning when I gave mom my interims, but it's seemed like wayyy longer, because I haven't really gotten to talk to anyone outside of school. So here's how my week went. Monday I sat around, and did basically nothing, I moved my room around, because I really had nothing better to do. Im glad I had my Ipod though, because if my mom gets to where she takes phone, computer, and ipod, well i think ill just die. At least she cant take my piano, it's in my room. Anyways, Tuesday my mom did let me go to the Philharmonic because it's one of their last performances before summer, and Kristen went with me. Mary Lee Taylor never ceases to amaze me. I dont think anything important happened Wednesday. Thursday was crazy. I got my hair cut right after school, went home and practiced for like... 30 minutes, went to piano lessons, went to cello lessons, came home, studied, and went to bed. Friday was solo and ensemble. Me and Rae played the cello duet that I wrote, and we got a superior! Ok, after that, Courtney rode with me to the Wired Bean, and we met up with Rachel, Meagan, Chris, and Denton. And I got to see Hayley again, and meet Mel and Grayson. And Me, Courtney, Chris, Grayson, Denton, Rachel, and Meagan sat out on the dam at the pond. And it hurts my brain to say everyone's name like that, and to think at all, because I just took the SAT. But I think that's all of the eventful things that've happened this week. I got to spend time with possibly my two favorite people in the world, Courtney and Rachel, and Im really glad of that.