i am not ashamed of the gospel of christ

it's amazing how God can scoop you off of your feet, and put your whole life into perspective, and remind you just how blessed you are. i was walking to the school of music after spanish class, and i was just across assembly street from the school of music, and this guy was sitting on a bench next to me, and he just started talking to me. turns out his name is tony and he's homeless. we sat and talked for about an hour about God, and life. God really spoke to me throughout our conversation, and reminded me of how incredibly blessed i am, and how good i really have it, but this man was probably more happy, and closer to God than i've ever been. he has no place to stay, but God takes care of him, and makes sure that he gets the things he needs. but then at the same time, he doesn't have anything to burden him. he doesn't have a house to worry about or anywhere he has to be at a certain time. his life is simple, and he just spends his days with the lord. it's amazing how i can get so caught up in "life", or what i think is life, and really forget how simple it all can be. while we were talking, he said something like this to me: you know, it doesn't really matter how bad it gets, you can lose everything like i did, i have nothing more than a few dollars to my name, and this bookbag, but things always get better. life can't really get much lower for him, because he has nothing to lose. sometimes, i just think my life is so horrible, and everything that's going wrong can seem pretty overwhelming, but life always gets better. the lord has blessed me with plenty more than i really need, he's given me a family that takes damn good care of me, and awesome friends that care about me. i'm just in awe of God's love right now, and i can't help but praise Him for the people like tony, who He places in my path, just to remind me how awesome He is.

a head that aches doesn't have to stay that way

just let what's dead go.
i know there's pain in leaving things all too well.
a heart that craves doesn't have to stay that way,
just let what's dead go.
in time, you'll find needing things only kills you slowly.
if you're not sure who you are, you're not alone.
if you're not sure what you want, you're not alone.
if you're not sure of life, of love, you're not alone.
tell your friends, hey come on over and we'll talk.
you bring the drinks, i’ll bring the bad news.
everyone feels like you...
long awaited, long overdue...
cus you can't sleep with your mind on all these things.
bring out what’s dead and dying, rotting body, while you still can.


this song gives me hope.
i don't pray anymore,
but if i did,
i would pray it gives you hope as well.

what's life to lose?

if i fail, well then i fail, but i gave it a shot

things seem to be getting better,
and i'm excited.