in the city where we still reside
i just completely bombed my audition. i did almost perfect on the chopin prelude, but the mozart fantasy was horrible. i played completely wrong notes on parts that i've never messed up on before. the runs and arpeggios were a complete fucking disaster. the sightreading piece was incredibly easy, and under normal circumstances i would've played it perfectly, but i ruined it. i'm trying really hard not to beat myself up over this, but i fucked up really bad. i definitely didn't play my best, by far. actually, i don't know if i've ever played that bad before in my life. it was fucking horrible. i'll be extremely surprised if i get an acceptance letter. but there's nothing i can do about it now, just wait for the spring semester so i can reaudition.
i'm so stressed out right now. i really can't believe that this just happened.
i feel sick, and i've been shaking since i got out of the audition almost 2 hours ago.
i'm completely fucking disgusted with myself right now.
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Aw babe, I'm sorry.
Try not to fret too much though. What's done is done, and all we can do is push forward.
Do you want to hang out tonight?
I'll call you in a little bit.
I'm thinking maybe some time at Waffle House with a nice cup of coffee to make you feel better?
I love you.
awww.
i know that sometimes we do bad.
but you know there were people who did worse.
lol.
and auditions are auditions.
no two are usually never alike.
im sure you didnt do as bad as you say.
but i know you got what it takes to master whatever it is.
:] :] :]
loveyou.
I'm sure you did better than you think
and I love you
i could tell you were ridiculously stressed when i came over and you were chain smoking in your room. but hey i love you. and we all know what an amazing musician you are. you'll be okay kid. you will get it. <3
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