pardon me while i burst into flames

something is seriously wrong with me.

1
you hurt me, very badly. and you don't even realize it. we used to have a decent friendship, but i can't continue to be friends with someone who isn't the slightest bit considerate of my feelings. i know you mean well, but it hurts. it hurts to just sit here and watch you cater to my loneliness. i wish none of this shit would have ever happened, but it's too late now. when are you planning on being realistic with yourself? you're so optimistic, and you keep telling yourself that things will change. well guess what, nothing has changed except you.

2
what the fuck were you thinking? how could you let yourself do this? i sat by and watched you tell yourself time and time again that you wouldn't get in this predicament. well now you're here, so what are you going to do about it? there's no easy fix, i promise.

3
i don't know what to say to you. in the past, you told me numerous times exactly what was bothering me, before i even told you i was upset. do you understand me like you used to, or did you ever even understand me at all?


i never thought i would be...
on the verge of spontaneous combustion...
but i guess that it comes with the territory;
an ominous landscape of never ending calamity.
i need you to hear,
i need you to see that i have had all i can take
and exploding seems like a definite possibility to me.
so pardon me while i burst into flames...
pardon me, pardon me, i'll never be the same.