i desperately need to do one of these things.

person 1,
i picked you first because you've been on my mind a lot for the past few days, for obvious reasons. we can't throw our friendship away, purposefully or accidentally. we've been through too much shit together, and we've overcome countless things like this in the past. i don't plan on letting this get the best of us. you've been such an incredible influence in my life for the past few years, and i think it's safe to say that you played a major role in shaping me into the person i am today. i know that time and time again we have come to this same realization, but it's become so incredibly urgent now, that i don't think we realize how reliant our sanity has become on one another. we need to do what is right, and we both know what that is. our friendship means more to me than any situation like this that has came up in the past, and will come up in the future. i'm ready if you are, but god knows it won't be easy.

person 2,
i know that you won't read this, but that's irrelevant. i'm really glad that we're friends. i see a lot of myself in you, and that scares the hell out of me. i really hope that one day, you will find what you want out of life, and i hope to god this is not it.

person 3,
i love you, i really do. i'm glad that you're happy, and content for now. you've found your own place in the world, one that nobody would've seen coming a year ago. don't let yourself get trapped inside this person that you portray yourself to be. a role model is a big shoe to fill, but don't let yourself run to escape it. everybody has their flaws, you can't hide yours forever.

person 4,
i know you better than anyone else. i've been there with you through it all, and you've fucked up big time. it's really hard to get back up on your feet, but you can do it. i want so bad for you to find yourself lost and alone with nowhere to go but up, and that is the best thing that could happen to you right now. but that's not going to happen. you have too many people who are willing to go through way too much shit for you. you don't deserve half of it. but you have it. you're getting back up, and you have people who love you, people who genuinely care about you, who are willing to do most anything to help you get where you're going. now all you have to do is convince yourself that you can. and you can, i know you can. but you just have to go for it, full speed ahead, give it your everything, don't back down, don't let up, and you'll be exactly where you need to be a month or two from now. i fucking hate you.