let's hear that string part again, because i don't think they heard it all the way out in bushnell

this weekend has been good. friday night me and meagan went to palmer's, and hayley and eric, and denton and courtney came too. it was great. we watched half of garden state, and went outside to watch the lightning storm, and it wasn't raining yet. and meagan fell in the pool, and then pushed hayley in. and then it rained, and we went inside and made confetti cupcakes with icing and sprinkles,

sorry, i just got distracted by the amazing bass line in the beginning of "they are night zombies!!..." by sufjan stevens. amazing!

so anyways, we ate cupcakes, and then everybody left. i took meagan home, and denton came over, and we stayed up late talking and listening to good music, which is always fun. saturday, i slept half the day, and i was supposed to go hang out with a few friends that night, but that never happened, so i ended up "going to waffle house" around 11ish, which was fun.

and... nothing worth mentioning happened today,
but i have a small bit i need to get off my chest:

i need to renew my hope in mankind, or at least the people around me. maybe i should hang out with different people. or maybe, i just haven't been around certain people enough, the people who keep me happy and sane. i'm sorry if you don't fit into that category. i just constantly feel let down by everyone around me, not in a personal way at all though, it seems unintentional. it seems like everyone i know has developed one of two mindsets: "i don't give a fuck, and you'd better not try to tell me otherwise", or "i'm going to tell you everything you're doing wrong". completely apathy, and overcompensation for those people who are being completely apathetic.
if you think this is about you, then it more than likely isn't.

for some reason, i feel the need to reiterate this, but for completely different reasons that i had for writing it in the first place.

i'm sorry if this post confused you, my mind is in a million different places right now.